i'll bE....

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll be better when i'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of you life

The greatest fan of your life

- i hope someday i can say this (again) to someone to...if there is one person na pwedeng pagsabihan ko nito aside from my friends siguro ung x ko... hehe... i dedicate this to her... but if someone comes along... yaan mo... ika nga sa kanta....

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

and i hope you will not be Jealous if i have dedicated this song to someone before... just remember that you are mylife now... and for me you will always be my love...

haha,,,,

wala lang....

uLaN...

tHAnk GoD... umulan kanina.... haaayyy....

sarap kanina... hehe.... naligo ako sa ulan... childish?? dont think so...

there are lot of fond memories that came back to me nung naligo ako sa ulan kanina... still remember nung bata ako how i wanted to go out of our house whenever it is raining, tapos wala lang... makikipaglaro lang ako sa mga kaibigan ko nun...

i remember din dati nung HS naglilinis kami minsan ng room namin ... saturday nun then biglang umulan nagkayayaan bgla na maligo... hehe basang basa ako nun pero since medyo malapit lang naman ung bahay namin sa school nakauwi din naman ako kagad unlike ung sa iba kong friends and barkada, byahe pa sila...

Rain do bring lot of memories... some of them are good and some are not... ika nga nila sisikat daw ang araw pagkatapos ng bagyo... pero ngayon...

pagkatapos ng mahabang tagaraw... matapos ang napakalagkit na summer na ito... uulan at uulan pa din... hehe

biLLs biLLs biLLs....

fuck!!! tangnang bills yan di pa maubos sa mundong ibabaw... paksheet... isa pa yang tax na yan... hayuf!!!!


hmpf!!!

wEak...

I don't know what it is that you've done to me
But it's caused me to act in such a crazy way
Whatever it is that you do when you do what you do to me
It's a feeling that I don't want to stay

Now my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of loving you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the problem here is you

(Chorus)
I get so weak in the knees I can hardly speak
I lose all control
It's something comes over me
In a daze, it is so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me
By my side, I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain why your loving makes me weak.

Time after time after time I tried to fight it
But your love is strong. It keeps on holding on
Resistance is down when you're around
My ba-a-by
In my condition, I don't want to be alone

(Refrain)

(Chorus)

I get so weak
Blood starts racing through my veins
I get so weak
Ooh, its something I can't explain
I get so weak
Something 'bout the way you do
The things you do... (it)
Knocks me right off of my feet (off my feet)
Can't explain why your love just makes we weak

--- one of my favorite songs.... do i have to explain this more??? isnt it that when you are in love you just simply inlove... you dont seem to mind other things coz the feeling of being in love is simply overwhelming... haayyy.... hehe

sighhh....

1. in love ka ba?

- wala ngang love life... zero po....

2. kung oo, pwede ko bang malaman kung sino?

- wala nga po di ba? pwede ikaw nalang???

3. kung hindi, bakit???

- walang magkamali??? walang makitang suitable sa isang pobreng tulad ko...

4. a ganon ba. pero may nangliligaw ba sayo ngayon?

- wala...

5. e nililigawan?

- walang makita e...

6. pano kung sakaling makita mo x mo sa likod mo ngayon ano sasabihin mo sa kanya?

- tara kain tayo... i've been wanting to talk with you for a long time now...

7. pano kung sakaling nakasabay mo sa elevator ung x mo at ung nangliligaw sayo ngayon, pano mo sila iintroduce sa isat isa?

- not applicable...

8. pano kung ung nililigawan mo naman at ung x mo ang nakasabay mo sa elevator, pano mo sila ipapakilala sa isat isa?

- casual lang... gona tell their names dun sa isa... no need to tell kung sino x at sino bago... then pag wala na ang x tsaka mo sabihin sa bago na she was your x. hirap naman nito...

9. may naipakilala ka na ba sa mga magulang mo na bf/gf?

-meron 2 lang...

10. kayo pa din ba?

-hindi na po...

11. kung oo, gano na kayo katagal?

-hindi na nga po kami... kulit... hehe

12. kung hindi na, bakit kayo nagkahiwalay?

- we are not meant for each other, i guess...

13. sino may kasalanan ng break up nyo?

- ung una, pareho naming decision un, the 2nd one... i guess pareho kaming may kasalanan.

14. ilan na ulit ung naging x mo?

- secret walang clue.

15. sa lahat ng naging karelasyon mo, sino pinakamatimbang sayo?(except ung current mo.)

- si cecil pa din... sigh...

16. is there any posibility na maging kayo ulit?

- mahirap na kasal na sya e... haaayyyy....

17. naaalala mo pa ba ung masasaya nyong alaala?

- oo naman...

18. e ano naman nararamdaman mo ngayon???

- wala... emptyness...

19.last question... kung mabubuhay ka ulit, gugustuhin mo pa din bang makilala ang pinakamamahal mo kahit alam mong mawawala din naman sya sayo pagdating ng panahon?

- yup... kahit paulit ulit pa... it would be a real blessing to me if ever i will be able to go back to those times i was with her... hay,,, -sigh -sigh -sigh

sOrrY....

----sorry seems to be the hardest word to say... damn, finally i have to guts to say sorry again to a friend... hope he would find it in his heart to forgive me. i dunno if he already put me in his blocked list...

---- umm, i have been trying to find him here at friendster for several days now... yah i know i shouldve said sorry personally, pero baka mamya himatayin lang ako sa harap nya at di na makapagsalita... i easily admit it if i have done wrong but sometimes it really hard to say sorry to someone, hope you get my point...

---- damn thinkin back, i really dunno know what the fuck got into me when i did that thing to him. hmm before i really think i have a purpose to saying it to a close friend but now... nyeta kasi ako syado akong madaldal...

---- the guy??? he was really a good person and a great friend...

sigh,

i really hope he forgive me...

even for old time sake nalang.

what do you think i should do?

sigh,

argh!!! yoko ng ganitong life,.....

diLemA...|

nglapit na naman ang uwian... nakikita ko na ang sinag ng araw dito malapit sa bintana ng aming office... hay, malapit nang matapos ang isang gabi ng pagpupuyat at magsisimula nanaman ang kalbaryo namin ang PAGTULOG.... namputsa... e sino ba ang hindi nakakaranas ngayon ng ganong problema... nagpapakahirap ka na ngang maging gising sa shift mo napakahirap pang matulog paguwi mo... lalo na ung mga oras sa paitan ng 1:00 at 4:00 pm... isinusumpa ko yaong mga oras na iyon...ngayon (bukod sa iba pang panahon) ako tinamaan ng sobrang inggit sa mga taong nasa day shift... they are comfortable here inside the office while we are having a hard time trying to get some sleep... i consider myself lucky if ever i have 5 hrs of sleep... but 5 hrs of sleep isnt enough... tapos dukdukan pa ng init at puro pawis ka na pagkagising mo... un e kung makakatulog ka ng dirediretso ng 5 hrs... ako hindi usually putol putol ang tulog ko pag ganon... hmpf... i am really looking forward na mag rainy season na saten... kahit mahirap pumasok sa office... i am sure i will really apreciate it kung mas malamig ang panahon...hay nako... nakakabaliw... sa pagsusulat ko palang nito naiisipng maayos mamya... huhuhuhu.... bwiset... ko na ang dilema ko for this week.... i hope makatulog ako

hOliDAy....

Thank God… damn I really need that break… 4days din kaming walang pasok sa office… paksheet parang yoko na nga pumasok sa office after nitong break naming…. Hay…. Ngayon ko na-appreciate si GMA na maging president lagi nalang kasing may holiday hehe…. Ang saya no??? cant wait para sa susunod na holiday… omg! Nation pang Sunday and july 12… diba independence day un??? Sana I move ulit ng monday ang holiday para mahaba ulit ang break... bwahahaha....

crazy for you....

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one

I see you through the smokey air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, is that

Chorus:
I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all

Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see

Chorus: I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
I'ts all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
You'll feel it in my kiss because
I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
I'ts all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you
Crazy for you, crazy for you

It's all brand new, I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true
I'm crazy, crazy for you

-damn hope wag nyako syado paasahin... not that ive never been this crazy before for someone its just that when you are into someone you are giving that person the key to hurt you... lucky if the person you are into dont have any intension of just fooling you, e pano kung hindi??? sigh.... i hope not!!! coz i am really crazy for you right now... though it seems like you dont care... i will still wait for you to realize that i am hurting and i trully care for you...